Quester and I have had a longtime inside joke about being able to either understand the meaning and flow of life, or to articulate it, but not both. When you’re feeling in the groove and you try to share it, all that comes out is “blahblahblah.”
Humor aside, I’ve noticed that I haven’t been posting here much lately. I’ve been out in the world, going with the flow, and living my life, for the most part, in a state of joy. The inner work I’ve been doing with self-love over the past few years is bearing fruit. I feel good about myself most of the time, and when I don’t, I recognize it and flow through my “stuff” more quickly than before.
It’s a huge thing, and I’m very thankful. It feels amazing. More doors are opening up for me all the time.
Despite the jesting about speaking my truth or embodying it, I find that in my creative work, I really can do both. I’ve been working on a new e-book, with the working title Cultivating Self-Love. I’m about one-third of the way through the first draft, and I’m really pleased with how it’s coming along. I’m writing more than I have in recent memory, and the ideas keep flowing. Despite my relative silence here, I’ve also been working on some other writing projects, mostly guest blogs and essays.
I had a funny limiting belief arise the other day – “this e-book project is such a big one – what if I pour my heart and soul into it and use up all my material in this one book?” I laughed out loud when I realized what I was thinking! It was easy to let it go. I am blessed with a plethora of ideas. That’s never been a problem. Yet there was some small part of me that believed there was a limit, that I could use up all my creativity at age 43 and just be…finished.
On the contrary, I feel like I’m just now hitting my stride as an author. Being published and sought out for other projects is a helpful addition to the confidence I’ve been gradually building through writing practice and inner work. The ideas just keep flowing in from my connection with spirit, and as spring progresses into summer, I promise to share more of them with you. Blessings!