Starcat’s Favorites: Lilac Season

Lovely lilacs at our place. Photo by BlackLion.

Lovely lilacs at our place. Photo by BlackLion.

The lilacs are blooming! I love their lavender beauty and that delightful smell. Ah, full spring, with summer right behind it. I love it! This weekend I’ll be spending some time in our new hammock, reveling in the gorgeous weather and this lovely place where I live. I’m so very grateful!

Here’s some good reading (and watching) for your weekend. Enjoy!

Speaking of gratitude, here’s the start to a whole alphabet of gratitude. Thanks!

I’m not usually a huge fan of videos, but this one blew me away. What a fantastic message. Yes!

Listening to your body before saying yes to Too Many Things. This is so me – both the tendency to schedule too much, and the relatively new skill of listening within before saying yes.

Quiet time amidst the chaos of life.

Had an epiphany lately? Do you know what happens next? Words of wisdom from Danielle LaPorte (one of my new favorite authors – I’m reading The Desire Map and loving it).

We just hung up our first hammock at home, and now I’ve been hearing about hammock camping. Intriguing…

This is a really interesting take on the practice habits of some of the top achievers in music. It can apply to other creative pursuits, too.

Thinking of starting your own business? Check out these little secrets.

How to honor your own divinity.

And a quote for today: “The nature of your personal beliefs in a large measure directs the kinds of emotions you will have at any given time. You will feel aggressive, happy, despairing, or determined according to events that happen to you, your beliefs about yourself in relation to them, and your ideas of who and what you are. You will not understand your emotions unless you know your beliefs. It will seem to you that you feel aggressive or upset without reason or that your feelings sweep down upon you without cause if you do not learn to listen to the beliefs within your own conscious mind, for they generate their own emotions.” – Seth through Jane Roberts

Come on over to the Feline Dreamers website and check out our new video series on core beliefs! We’re doing a 4-part video series as a lead in to our new online course, The Alchemy of Core Beliefs: Unearthing Your Hidden Framework, beginning June 1st. Hope to see you there!

Digging Really Deep

I’m sitting here on a rainy May morning, contemplating how much my life has changed over the past few years. On the outside, it might not look like things have shifted all that much. I’m still living in the country, enjoying my writing, still working at the radio station part time, very involved in the lives of my family members, happily unschooling, with many of the same interests (books, spirituality, drumming, dancing, art journaling, hiking).

But on the inside, it’s a whole new landscape. And I mean that in the best way possible.

I’ve taken a journey to self-love, learning to treat myself as I would a beloved child. I’ve embodied a sense of inner relaxation, where there used to be a constant ball of stress and low-level anxiety. No, I’m not always relaxed, but I’m familiar enough with the sensation to return to it when I get off-center. Rather than fretting about my creativity, productivity, and prosperity, now I’m letting them flow through me. I have the inner resources in place to trust in the process, and have fun with it every day.

Best of all, I’m still learning and expanding, and as I grow, more and more of my most cherished dreams are coming true. It’s such a terrific feeling!

How did I get here?

For most of my adult life I’ve been on a spiritual quest to find ways to be more joyful, creative, and healthy. At first I just read about it a lot. That’s a good start, but reading about personal development doesn’t really get you anywhere on its own. Then I figured out that I needed to practice the techniques, and make them my own. Spiritual practice is such a powerful tool for growth. I would venture to say that, for me at least, it’s essential.

Still, it wasn’t quite the whole picture. I found that I was still spinning my wheels, somehow ending up dealing with the same challenges over and over. Sure, the situations would look different, and I would have a greater ability to cope with what was going on, but it was still frustrating. “This? Again?!! Really?”

(My personal trouble spots? Prosperity – especially in connection with doing my soul work – and self worth. How about you?)

The key to the biggest shift in my inner life has been digging deeply into the core beliefs that I unconsciously internalized as I was growing up, and those I had added throughout my spiritual quest. I found that they often contradicted one another, and left me feeling stuck.

“Core beliefs are those about which you build your life. You are consciously aware of these, though often you do not focus your attention upon them. They become invisible, therefore, unless you become aware of the contents of your conscious mind.

“To become acquainted with your own ideas and beliefs, you must walk among them, symbolically speaking, without blinders. You must look through the structures that you have yourself created, the organized ideas upon which you have grouped your experience.” – Seth through Jane Roberts

Over the past few years, I’ve been digging deep, unearthing the belief structures that I’d forgotten about, getting to know them. By first becoming familiar with them, then making updates to the framework, I’ve made the shift to a more positive and empowered life. My favorite tools for this work have been journal writing, meditation, energy work (such as Reiki and polarity therapy), and mindfulness.

It’s really amazing how different I feel, on a daily basis. My basic foundation is now one of joy, love, and creativity. When I’m feeling “off,” it’s much easier to notice and to return to that foundation.

I want this for you, too.

Next month, BlackLion and I are offering our first-ever Feline Dreamers online course. We want to share with you the techniques, ideas, and inspirations that have helped us to revitalize our own core beliefs. The course is new, but we’ve been working on the supporting material for the past several years. We’ve put it all together in a brand new way that will help you to access your own core beliefs, then transform them so that you have a strong foundation for living the life of your dreams.

Wanna play?

Join us for The Alchemy of Core Beliefs: Unearthing Your Hidden Framework. This four-week course, starting on Monday, June 1st, will include a daily email with a brief reading, an audio guided meditation tailored to the day’s topic, and specific exercises designed to delve deeply into your underlying belief structure. Weekly videos will encourage you to unearth your hidden treasures and a private Facebook group will give you up-to-the-moment support with us and other folks who are also on this amazing journey of self-discovery.

Intrigued? You can learn more over at the Feline Dreamers website.

I’m so excited to work with you! You’ll see such an amazing transformation. Blessings!

Dancing Amidst the Chaos

Recently BlackLion and I were having a conversation about Being. What I mean by that, with the fancy capital letter and all, is that feeling you have when you’re centered in your own essence. You have a sense of inner calm and relaxation, and you’re comfortable with your place in the Universe.

You’re not (necessarily) doing anything, you’re just Being.

Over the past year or so, I’ve been practicing Being in that state, no matter what is going on around me. It’s a great way to cope with stress and conflict, as well as enabling a stronger focus on your most important priorities in life. It’s like mindfulness meditation, in a way, though I flavor my own practice with the tools that are meaningful to me: journaling, spending time outside in nature, doing yoga, making gratitude lists, expanding my spiritual studies, and using affirmations.

When I was sharing with BlackLion about my practice of Being myself no matter what was happening around me, he said, “Oh! That’s why you like chaos!”

Chaos is an essential part of the material world. Chaos and order are part of the yin and yang duality that makes up all things. Chaos knocks you out of the status quo. It brings change and thus growth. Chaos sparks new ideas and inspirations, and gives you a chance to get really creative in your problem-solving.

When you can remain centered in Being, or know how to return there when you get knocked off-balance, you start to acknowledge chaos as just another energy. You don’t saddle it with the fear and dread that it might have held for you before.

These past couple of weeks, chaos entered our family’s life in the form of an unexpected accident. This had repercussions for all of us. My aunt has had to deal with lots of pain, being dependent on others, and the frustration of having her plans put on hold. For me personally, I’ve been worried about her, and about my mom as she got run down and ill. My routine has been interrupted and I haven’t been able to focus as much on things that are important to me, like writing and exercise.

However, it’s also been a good lesson for me in many areas of my life. I’ve expanded my appreciation for my family and how supportive we are of one another. I’ve noticed how quickly the practice of Being gets challenged when you’re feeling emotionally and physically exhausted. I’ve been able to allow myself to get thrown off course, yet to not attach myself to feeling bad about it.

Accidents happen, and I’m more than willing to rearrange my life to help out a loved one. The old pattern that arose for me is thinking that I should be able to do all that AND all of my usual work. I’ve always been hardest on myself. Can you relate?

One of my mentors recently said that when we’re practicing keeping our energies clear and feeling really good, then we notice even more quickly when we do fall out of alignment. I’ve found that to be so true. On Sunday evening I was feeling overwhelmed and began to spiral into self-recrimination. I was crying and freaking out. I’d wanted to use the evening to get caught up on some writing projects, but instead I had a terrible headache. We had a thunderstorm and lost our electricity for a while, so I went off to bed early.

On Monday, I was able to see with real clarity what was going on. The stress of worrying about my loved ones, the interruption to my routine, and less down time than normal had built up. I did my energy clearing meditation, wrote in my journal, and got re-centered in Being.

I reminded myself of my basic worthiness, and that I didn’t have to do certain things in order to be living a fulfilling life. With a sigh of release, I danced myself back into the center, back into Being.

When crises or challenges arise, even though they aren’t things you would have chosen, you have a choice. You can add to the inherent stress of the situation by freaking out, then attaching yourself to those feelings, or you can continue to dance.

And let me be clear: freaking out is totally acceptable. You need to really feel your emotions in order to move through them. It’s what you do afterwards that makes your life easier or harder. Can you step back into the center, into that inner calm that exists at your core? Will you allow chaos to bring you growth, learning, and powerful change? Rather than living in fear or anger, can you accept what is and then adapt accordingly?

Chaos is a powerful force, and not one that’s ever going to go away. By learning to be in your center most of the time, when crises arise, you’ll find them easier to deal with. When you feel out of whack, you’ll remember how to get back to your center.

Practicing just Being when you’re feeling good will help you out when things get challenging.

Making Other Plans

In my high school yearbook, back in the late 1980s, my senior quote was this:

“Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans.” – John Lennon

I can’t recall what spurred me to share that particular bit of wisdom. I like the Beatles well enough, but I’m not an avid fan. It pleases me to think that my teenage self was somehow drawn to this quote, which still rings true now, in my mid-40s.

It’s certainly an apt description of this past week. I had plans to share blog posts with you on playfulness and being your authentic self in community. I’ll have them for you another time, but tonight I’m kind of feeling like my cat Percy was this morning when we woke up:

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My beloved aunt, who lives next door and is like a second mother to me and my clan, fell on Tuesday and broke her hip. She has osteoporosis and arthritis, and over the past three years she’s had five surgeries, for breaks and joint replacements. So you can see how we might all feel like wailing “it’s just not fair!” on her behalf, or just staying in bed, like Percy.

In sharp contrast, the week started with a workshop on Monday that really rocked my world, in terms of my writing career and building my business. I have a lot of cool projects in the works that will be influenced by what I learned there.

Those plans will have to wait for a bit, while life continues to happen.

I didn’t get much writing done this week, though I’m mentally composing my top ten tips for spending time in the hospital (as a visitor or patient), especially if you’re highly sensitive. I’ll add that one to the list of upcoming posts.

Don’t get me wrong, though, I don’t begrudge a single moment. I have the best family ever, and I will always happily share my time and energy to nurture and support them. I love how even in the emergency room (for ten hours, thank you very much), we always get each other laughing.

Life is good, and I feel blessed to have such wonderful people to share it with. Including you, dear reader. Thanks for sharing some of your precious time with me here at Starcat’s Corner.

And now I’m off to bed with Percy Lovecat. Sweet dreams!

Starcat’s Favorites: Follow the Bliss

wildpackoffamilydogsWhat’s been lighting up your world this week? I’ve been recovering from a head cold, so I’m moving slowly. But even so, I’ve been following my bliss as often as I can. This week it means walks with my son and a bunch of happy dogs, working with BlackLion on revising our novel, hula-hooping to SuperHeavy with my daughter, laughing with Quester, playing cards with my extended family, and putting up my feet & reading a good book. And that’s only a sampling. The rising energies of spring are such a blast!

Here are some links to help you follow your bliss, this weekend and beyond. Enjoy!

I use affirmations quite a bit in my personal journal. This is a really powerful one (and the story behind it) by Danielle LaPorte. Love it.

You know those things you just don’t seem to get to? We all have them. (I just discovered this website, Puttylike, and it’s really quite cool).

My friend and I have been discussing starting a local women’s group. This article she shared with me is terrific!

I so want to make this natural moisturizing sunblock recipe.

Another illustration of the value of regular practice and showing up for your creative pursuits. Yes to this.

A thought-provoking article on the value of different ways of thinking and perceiving.

A list of new books to read in the hammock or by the ocean this summer. I’ve only read one of these books, so I can’t vouch for them, but several are on my to-read list.

Beltane is next week! I’m getting so excited for the celebrations! Here’s a wonderful snapshot (in words) of a favorite.

I won an awesome prize from FaeryTale Ink! I’m going to be participating in the Gold Spinning online workshop in May! Check it out – it looks excellent. Her Facebook page, with images and stories from dreams, is one of my favorites.

In the meantime, I’ll be out here walking in the woods.

Blessings of fun and joy to you!

The Gift of Creativity

Today marks the start of a new offering here at Starcat’s Corner. From time to time, I’ll be presenting a Tarot card and then taking a look at a related topic through the lens of that card.

I’ve been working with the Tarot since 1997, and I find that it shines a different kind of light on a topic, problem or situation than we’re able to grasp with the rational mind alone. I invite you to take a look at the card, read the post, and then come up with your own insights and questions. I’d love to hear any that you care to share in the comments, below.

The first card we’ll be working with is the Ace of Wands, which invites us to look more deeply at our creativity. One of my favorite images of this card comes from The Sacred Circle Tarot by Anna Franklin and Paul Mason.

Here, take a look (click on the image to see a larger version):

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I love how vibrant and passionate the creative spark is in this image! The wand, which is made of oak, has been cut, severed from the tree. It is flawed and imperfect. Yet green leaves still bloom, and a powerful light emanates from the wand. To me, this shows how, despite the fact that we are each individual beings, mere humans, separated from our Source, we are nonetheless powerful creators. Whether consciously or not, simply by existing, you shine your bright light into the world. That light of your creative energy moves outward in concentric circles, affecting not only those around you, those who interact directly with you and your work, but also people and situations unknown to you.

And the separation itself is an illusion. Look how the wand stands upon the grassy plain, its tip buried firmly in the ground. You are part of the ground of being that encompasses the entire cosmos.

In the Tarot, the aces represent gifts. The gift of creativity that flows to you from this card comes with a new beginning. It is dawn in the image. Each day, you awaken from sleep into a brand new day, one in which you have the power to choose to create the life that is most meaningful to you. Sure, you can create in the traditional sense, by writing a book or painting a landscape. But whether or not you choose to do that work, you are already creating your own life, moment by moment, a work of art.

Sometimes we are unaware of this power that we hold, but it waits there for us in each new day.

The suit of wands, as is quite evident on this card, is associated with fire. Creativity is action. When you allow it to flow through you, warming your body, mind, and spirit, you come up with amazing ideas, inspired creations, and delightful connections. Fire can be scary, but it is also an essential part of life. Other ways to symbolize this type of energy would be sunshine, heat, electricity, or fuel. Think about how you fuel your own creative explorations. Do you block the flames, or feed them with your attention and time?

Here are some further questions for you to ask yourself, as a starting point on your own journey with the Ace of Wands:

What type of life am I creating for myself? What energies am I emanating? How do I share my creations with the world? In what ways can I enhance my connection with the cosmos, grounding myself more firmly in the all? What choices can I make each day to increase my creativity and contribution to the world? How am I feeding or smothering my creative fires?

If you’re excited to enhance your creativity and spiritual connection, subscribe to my brand new e-newsletter, Starcat’s Notebook. Just type in your name and e-mail on the toolbar to the right, and you’ll receive a monthly e-mail with creative musings, inspiring quotes, whimsical stories, fun and funky projects, and seasonal challenges. Join the creative revolution!

Creativity, Spirituality, and a New Notebook

This week I’d intended to write a post for you about the connection between creativity and spirituality. In my experience, I’ve discovered that the two are delightfully entwined. When I focus on my creativity, it expands my sense of connection with the entire cosmos. This increases my personal joy and my sense that I’m doing meaningful work. The converse is also true: when I take time to become connected, whether through meditation or taking time in nature or practicing mindful presence, I find that my creative flow is ramped up, almost exponentially.

While I was pondering this post, rolling the ideas around in my mind, BlackLion and I sat down to work on one of my goals for this month. I wanted to start an e-newsletter for my readers (that’s you, dear one), a way to have a more personal connection to those who choose to go in depth with what I share here. I took a look at what I write about most here on the blog: yup, the answer is spirituality and creativity!

I decided that the newsletter will focus on how you can add more creativity and imagination to your everyday life, thus automatically increasing your own joy quotient and lending more meaning to what you do. Sound good?

starcatsnotebookStarcat’s Notebook was born! Tah dah!

So, here’s the deal. If you’d like to get in on the fun, just sign up over on the right side of the page. The newsletter will come out once each month, and will include lots of fun and creative goodies. Like creative musings, inspiring quotes, whimsical stories, fun and funky projects, and seasonal challenges. AND, in addition to that, you’ll receive (as soon as it’s finished) a Creative Inspiration Pack, which is a spunky little e-book by yours truly (with artwork by BlackLion) that is your special gift for joining us.

Today I’ve been polishing the outline for the Creative Inspiration Pack, and I’ll be working on it for the next week or two. That’s why this post on creativity and spirituality got a bit, well, side-tracked. Don’t worry, though, the whole concept has been expanded on and infused with a slew of fun new ideas, and you’ll be able to read it before too much longer!

If you join before the Creative Inspiration Pack is finished, I promise that it will be delivered to you as soon as it’s ready, wrapped up in a virtual purple ribbon!

Whether or not you sign up for Starcat’s Notebook, I always appreciate you reading these words, and I love to hear your feedback. Blessings!

Starcat’s Favorites: Warming Trend

WP_20150408_003Guess what?! I just looked at the forecast for my neck of the woods, and all the high temps for the foreseeable future start with fives and sixes! Woo hoo!

I took a walk earlier this week, even when it wasn’t quite so warm, and saw other signs that Spring is finally arriving here in Maine: robins, melting snow, and the rushing of the brooks and streams.

Yay! I’m so happy! I mean, I was happy before, but this provides an extra boost of joy. Add that to the fact that I finished writing the first draft of a novel last week, the one I started in November as part of NaNoWriMo, and life is really good indeed. I’m so thankful.

How was your week? Are you enjoying the weekend thus far? Is it warm and sunny where you are? If you’re looking for something fun to read, here’s a sampling of my recent favorites.

I’m really feeling like this lately in regards to my writing. What’s your passion?

Taming your inner critic. And how to stop over-thinking things. It might also help to contemplate the notion that there are really no mistakes.

I love this article about finding inner freedom.

25 ways to be kind. Pay it forward!

Want to be more productive? Check out these tips.

This article, while not really meant as humor, cracked me up. I may have been a bit like this myself when the kids were little…

I find this really fascinating. Actually, I’m in the process of learning about green burials and home funerals.

Have a wonderful week and enjoy springtime!

Leaving Space for the Mysteries

fd140716faesunset3Sometimes it seems like we live in a world where everything that isn’t completely rational has been either brushed aside or ridiculed. If there’s no research proving it, forget about it. It’s kooky. If it doesn’t involve making or spending money, it’s not important.

I used to listen to the NPR news all the time. Now it often seems two-dimensional. Journalism, even good journalism, follows a formula. Here’s a problem. This side says blah blah blah. The other side says blah blah blah. The facts and figures compiled by so-and-so say this. Cut and dry. Kind of boring.

What about the mysteries? The unknown? Dreams and visions? Seeing ghosts or angels or alien spacecraft? Communicating with nature spirits?

Leaving space for the mysteries in your life is like finding pleasure. Different people find joy in different activities, although we collectively have plenty of ideas about which pleasures are Good and which are Bad. Video games, for example. Mostly seen as Bad. But you might play a game where you’re hanging out with your friends, or mastering a particular maneuver, and you come away from it with a big smile on your face, feeling inspired. You might play because you like games, but get so upset about losing or not having mastered that trick yet that you curse and fume, and the whole household gets into a funk just from hearing your rage. That feels pretty icky.

What about bicycling? Good, right? Fantastic exercise for your body, and much easier on the environment than a car. But what if you ride so often that you need a double hip replacement by the time you reach your mid-40s?

One more example: enjoying a piece of cake. Homemade pound cake with raspberry jelly and perhaps some whipped cream. You might come away feeling bloated, with a sugar headache. Or you could brew a cup of tea and savor every bite of cake, then feel refreshed from your nurturing break.

This is when you might be thinking: no way. Sugar is always bad. It’s a poison. No good will come of this. You know those times when you feel that absolute about something? Watch out for that. Really. You don’t know anything for sure. None of us do. Hanging onto absolutes might be as unhealthy as eating candy bars for breakfast.

What if we’re wrong about sugar? What if everything is made of energy? What if our beliefs about the food we eat are more important to the outcome than the food itself? What if our very reality is composed of beliefs, which are simply thoughts that we think repeatedly?

What if it’s not?

For years now, nutritional science has told us to be healthy by minimizing fats. Now it’s saying, no, it’s the carbs that are bad for you. Bread, the “staff of life” our agricultural civilization was built upon, is a huge no-no. Why? Changing agricultural and food-production practices? Evolution of our physical bodies in a more sedentary modern world? Our collective beliefs?

None of the above? All of the above, and more?

If you prefer the absolutes, and enjoy scientific rationalism for that very reason, check out quantum physics. It’ll blow your mind.

Even religion relies on these absolutes. What does it say about us that the very discipline that is presumably all about the sacred mysteries relies so heavily on old dogma? My son Dryst, a self-described atheist, feels that our world would be much better off without religion. We had a great conversation about it the other day. Spirituality is fine, although it’s not his thing; it at least usually doesn’t cause people to want to kill or oppress groups of other people.

He feels that religious groups that take the Bible literally are ridiculous. He said, “It’d be like some modern general reading the Art of War and being like ‘Okay, get out the horses!’ ‘But sir, we have tanks…’ ‘Nope, this says horses.'”

So I asked him, “You mean, you’re looking at a scientific civilian society like Star Trek?” “Yeah, pretty much.”

I’ve been watching Star Trek: The Next Generation, and I can go with that. Even in their super-sciencey universe, they leave room for the mysteries. They make plenty of time for music,art, and stories. When they encounter something that doesn’t make sense, they use both their rational minds and their gut feelings to figure it out. They have a ship’s counselor, to empathically sense what other beings are going through internally. Captain Picard is such a successful leader because he doesn’t hold to the rules, but rather follows the flow of the situation.

And what do these guys eat? Whatever they want, because it’s all made in the replicator and will nourish their bodies. Uh huh.

Some people feel that the things we ridicule as new-age goofiness now, like telepathy, astral projection, and channeling, are simply the science of the future. What if consciousness is much more complex than we know? What if our physical world is a thin strand of an infinite web of interconnected probable realities? What if guardian angels really do watch over each of us? Or not. Who knows?

Leaving room for the mysteries in daily life isn’t foolish, or a waste of time. It’s healthy to realize that there’s so much we just don’t know. It doesn’t have to be scary. It can inspire you to begin new creations, take risks, or follow your heart’s deepest longings.

Use your imagination. Be inspired. Let your dreams, stories, and insights wash through you. Notice the synchronicities that pop up in your life. Play more. Seek out pleasures that lift you up, and forget what others say about it. May you be blessed with mystery.

Decisions, Decisions

oliverWhy can it be so hard to make decisions? Not just those life-changing This Is A Big Deal decisions. I find it can be a challenge sometimes to make the daily decisions that form the shape of our lives.

I’ve always been one to feel the lure of many different paths. I’ve evidently collected quite a few souls around me who feel the same way. What should we have for dinner? What do you want to do tonight? Which project should I work on next? These are some of the simple questions that give me – and my family – pause.

The astrology involved might add some insight. I’m a Virgo with Libra Moon (and several other planets in Libra), married to a Libra. Decisions? We must weigh all the pros and cons. We don’t want to commit to one thing, because it might negate another. Let’s make a list! Oh boy. Our first child, a son, was another Virgo. When we had our daughter, and found she was to be a Capricorn, we thought, that’s great! She can be in charge of what to do!

It didn’t work out that way. It turns out that Capricorns – or at least this particular feisty red-headed one – don’t waste their decisive superpowers on the little stuff. She’s right there in the thick of “I dunno…” with the rest of us. I added a Leo partner to the mix, but he’s an easy-going type and would mostly rather go with the flow.

What the heck, people? Why does the Mom automatically get to be the leader of the family, the organizer, the one who knows What’s Up? Does anyone else have this issue?

It almost makes me miss my bossy friends, the ones I stopped hanging out with because I grew in a different direction. There was a time in my life when I went along with their ideas. Because, why not? Let’s write a vegan cookbook! (this when I was very timid in the kitchen, a devoted recipe-follower). Let’s go on a silent meditation retreat with people we’ve never met! Let’s start a new scouting group for our kids! I learned a lot from all the things I did that I probably wouldn’t have tried, left to my own devices. It was nice to be a follower. Until it wasn’t.

When I was younger, I preferred the known. The world was intense and overwhelming, and keeping my own ducks in a row helped me to feel safer. But now, in my 40s, having freed my creativity and released it into the world (yeah, watch out!), I’m learning to be okay with leaving things more to chance. To flow. To – dare I say it? – spontaneity. I don’t need to make these pesky decisions way in advance, or if I am faced with a choice, I can randomly pick one that sounds good and go with it as far as I choose.

These days, when decisions are tough, I listen deep within. I trust my heart. I jump in, feet first.

At the prompting of the amazing Play Nexus faeries, in one of their workshops, I created “My Heart’s Bucket List.” It was cool to be really surprised by some of the items that showed up there. The last thing on the list?

“Feel free every day.”

I’m getting there.